Thursday, September 25, 2008

The saga continues...

Life flies by at a frightening pace doesn't it? Hardly gives you time to breath really. Sometimes I feel drowned and suffocated by everything. Other times I feel surrounded and comforted by the same things.
Could I possibly be growing up? If this is what growing up feels like, I'm not certain I want to be growing anywhere. Sometimes I wish there was a pause button. Just so I could take a step back, take a deep breath, and take a look at it all as a whole. It gets a little jumbled together and that's where the so-called "confusion" begins.
It all comes down to the simple things doesn't it? That's what it always comes down to. Maybe Dad's right about priorities. Maybe that could be one of the keys to the whole operation. Maybe priorities open just one more door on this journey.
Maybe I speak in a lot of metaphors lately that don't make sense to anything.
Back to simple things. You figure those things out and everything falls into place. You prioritize and figure out what really matters, and everything just happens to work out.
I think life really works well that way..
Hm...
So confusion.. comes from.. making the simple things just a little blurred and cluttered. Get the simple things straightened out and put together, the BIG things, and the little things will fit right where they need to.
So basically.. I'm standing on the sky. But that's where I'm supposed to be. So the real question is, are they looking up or looking down?

One last thing.
I know exactly how I feel about you.
Exactly.

I just haven't figured out what comes next..
Have you?

When you do.. would you let me know?


You.
And you. And you.
Forget you.
No one needs you.
I need you.
I don't need you.
A different face,
different arms to hold me
that aren't yours.
I don't need you.
I need you.
I'm not sad, just a little cloudy.
I'm not confused, just a little cluttered.
Here it comes. Here I go
write my heart out
for you.
And you. And you.