Friday, August 29, 2008

So many people, so little Tori

Okay so it's been awhile. Like maybe a month? Almost?
Quite a bit has happened in that month, the month of August.
Things like EFY, and school starting. Exciting things like that.

I can't even begin to describe the miraculousness of it all. It needs a word of it's own. But how do you come up with a word to describe such intense joy? It's one of those things that simply cannot be expressed in words.
"There are times when explanations, no matter how reasonable, just don’t seem to help."
-Mr. (Fred) Rogers

This is one of those times.

I could explain to you how I feel about everything happening to me lately, or try to, (my lack of verbal skill would most definitely be a barrier) but it wouldn't help much. It's one of those things you won't ever understand until you experience it for yourself. There are many of those I've noticed.
The most prominent feeling throughout all of this, the one that sticks out to me the most, is how grateful I am. I think being grateful can lead to love, which in turns leads to joy. I am so grateful for every moment I am living. I am so grateful for all of the incredible people that I am surrounded by every day, including my family. I'm grateful for all the opportunities that I am blessed with. I am grateful that I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints and that I was raised in the most true church on this good earth. I'm grateful for all the material possessions that I am blessed with that I take for granted. And simply put, I'm grateful that I am me.

I've started reading my scriptures first thing after school for twenty minutes, with another ten minutes of gospel study on top of that. I think it's really changed life even more for me. Because this way I'm not too tired to read every night, it doesn't keep me up late at night, the time limit forces me to study and focus more, etc etc. Millions of reasons. Point is, it's wonderful. I also have seminary every morning. Which is a great blessing. I fully intend to keep actively pursuing the spirit every day of my life.

What I would love more than anything else right now is to make an extremely long list of all the millions of people on my mind. But I don't think that is really appropriate for this situation. People will think I'm creepy. So I'll just end it.

The end.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Here we go again

Okay people. To all of my avid readers, of which there are one, I'm too busy to blog every day of my life. So shut it.

"Sometimes you don't talk because you are inside yourself and outside things are a distraction you'd rather not endure. Maybe the world will go away, you hope."

My mom wrote that. I'm basically a miniature version of my mother. Isn't that great? It really is. I always thought I was more like my dad. But I'm noticing more and more that I am more like my mom. Isn't that great? It really is.

There is so much going through my mind right now that I can't even process it. That's kind of how it feels to be inside of yourself. You can't process anything the way you're supposed to. When this happens, I tend to make lists. Yay.

1. Max Worsham. Nuff said.
2. Alex Hughes. Nothing to say.
3. "See you in the next life" +plus+ "Is it the next life already??" =equals= The extent of Tori's cleverness.
4. Are you Mormon? Do you like to read?
5. Some 13-year-olds are just born with amazing eyes.
6. Don't invite people to mutual unless you really want them there. On the other hand, just invite people to mutual. It's good for you. And them.
7. Mr. Revelli is not a seminary teacher. Get over it.
8. Your pet bathroom will never smell like vanilla goodness!
9. I don't want to live by myself with old people. Graduation's going to suck!
10. "I heard you wanted to be accompanist." "Oh I did. Now I don't."
11. Some 17-year-old girls are just born high maintenance flirts.
12. Making fun of people is never fun. Where's the fun in making fun? After the making part.
13. Call Natalie. Which Natalie? The mother. The mother of Natalie or Natalie the mother?

Thirteen is a great number. So that list probably won't make sense to anyone but me. Probably because it is the thoughts inside of my head. But it will probably entertain me for years to come. You have questions? I have answers. Usually.
Thank you ladies and gentlemen. I'll be here all day.